Back to It
Oh my gooooossssh… hello April.
Thank you, Lord, for the sweet time and month that is April.
I feel like I am a little bear coming out of hibernation; peeking out to check what’s going on, at least.
I’ve had my fair share of low motivation, sucky weather, and DoorDash.
I haven’t really felt all that inspired lately; I’ve felt that I’ve just been coasting (which, isn’t necessarily a bad thing!) I’ve certainly needed this time to recharge. And being stuck inside for the majority of the time will do that for you. Oh! and so will therapy.
I started therapy last week!
I know what you’re thinking, “Damn, finally!” (especially if you've been reading my newsletter for a bit).
It’s been something I’ve wanted to try for a while, but didn’t muster up the courage to actually look into it until recently. I am (and have always been) so pro-therapy, pro-mental health, and pro-bettering-yourself-in-anyway-you-can, so I genuinely felt it was time for me to try it.
But to look at my own reflection in the mirror (and SubStack posts, let’s be honest, ha!) I realized that I not only wanted but needed someone to talk to-to help me navigate some areas of life.
Come to find out (!!!) it’s not ultra-normal to feel super anxious and worried all the time?!
But all jokes aside — I’ll tell you what, every session I have had thus far feels like thee biggest hug to myself. I am so grateful to have the opportunity to make this apart of my life now! And if you’re on the fence about trying it, just give it a try.
Ever since starting therapy, I’ve found a new zest for life and for giving myself grace in how I feel day-to-day without feeling so heavy about it. I am also very fortunate as my therapist is an absolute delight and has been so helpful in the two sessions I’ve had so far. I lay down at night and don’t feel so tense and anxious. Everything is okay. We are all doing our best.
(If you have any questions about starting therapy or anything of the sort or just need someone to talk to, I’m always here and will do my best to help in any way I can)
But yeah! April! New beginnings!
For the longest time, I’ve always thought the fall time was my favorite season. But SHEESH have I changed! The feeling that spring brings is transcendent.
Did I completely pull nearly everything out of my bathroom and clean the living heck out of it yesterday? You bet!
Did I wash our sheets, duvet cover, pillow cases, couch covers, clothes, and towels yesterday? Uh, of course!
Did I try to refresh my desk space to feel light and pretty and colorful today? Yes! Did I succeed? Kinda?! (Got some of thee *cutest* pink legal pads!)
Although it’s been raining a majority of this week in New York so far (and in Kentucky some groggy weather as well), I still feel that life is starting to bloom again.
The past few weekends, Andrew and I have been soaking up the sun in Central Park and the West Village.
We’ve had this interesting observation – that nearly (or so as it seems) everyone in Manhattan is on the same schedule. If there is just one pretty day in the city, everyone and their mother is out. It’s refreshing and brings a beautiful (and mmmmuch needed) sense of community and humanity to the city that I, and everyone else, needs oh so very much.
New York might have everything, but good weather, sense of community, and nature? She’s lacking, girl.
But yeah.
Things feel good (even when they don’t).
And I thank God for that often.
I’m going to try to start writing more frequently again as I’ve had this creative spark. I love writing so much and hate when I get in a funk with it. I’ve not even wanted to journal, so it’s not just you, SubStack.
But yeah.
Here I am - April 3, 2024, feeling better and feeling hopeful. Thanks to God, a great therapist, a lovely partner, good music, and a positive attitude.
I hope you are doing well and that you decide to choose yourself and what is best for you each and every day!
“And just like the moon, you shall go through phases of light, of dark, and of everything in between. And though you may not always appear with the same brightness, You are always whole.”
- Nichole McElhaney
I truly hope you give yourself grace and do something that makes you happy today and everyday!
Best,
Jade